Ever since school started, I've been thinking way too much. Of course, I've always thought too much, but lately, it's been excessive, even for me.

Today at work while I was making a Coney Cheese Dog, or something like that, I started thinking, once again. And I hit an epiphany of sorts, I guess you could call it that.

I can't control over people's events, feelings, thoughts, situations etc. Everyone has their own lives, and even though I'm involved in their lives- they lives are not mine. I can get involved, if I want to, and I don't have to, if I don't want to. If they ask me for advice- I will give my own opinion, but hope that they realized that it's just that- my opinion and my view and my take on things.

I also realized that my life is just that. MY life. I don't have to act to what others act, think, believe, etc. I am ME. I am my own person and that works for me.

I realized that I can't project other people's relationships onto my own. Two relationships close to me have went their ways, and that is OKAY. People change, relationships change, and that is LIFE. Again, it's not my decision. Just because people end things, doesn't mean that I have to be next in the line. What happens, happens, and for some reason why it happens is because it was meant to BE for some REASON. And as for friendships- friends can be different in so many ways, and just because I can't stand someone, if they are a friend of one of my closest friends, I will accept them. It's their friendship, and friendship is a beautiful thing in it's own right. And as for breakups- again, things happen and just because they happen, doesn't mean life necessarily stops. And just because other relationships end, doesn't mean that I have to be upset or paranoid over MY OWN relationship. Because that's just what it is- MY OWN relationship, and I know it better than anyone else.

I guess this blog sounds kind of self centered, and maybe it'll send the wrong impression; but I hope not. All of this stuff is stuff that I needed to realize, and I needed to realize myself.

I tend to overthink; but, I think now that I realize that I have to think a bit more objectively. Not that I was necessarily selfish about me, but there are times I now realize where it's not my responsibility, or that it was MY responsibilty.

I really don't know on how to add anything to this. There are things where I cannot verbally explain, but I suppose everyone feels this way at some point or another, and I hope I can trust you the reader to understand that. I hope that no one is/was/will be offended by this, because that wasn't my intent- just my expressions for today. I guess this is fairly serious for me, and I suppose some of you may think that I've snapped, become (more of?) a bitch, but this is one of those times where I said what I felt needed to be said.

Words in caps are not yelling, but are simply just emphasized.

I feel like writing about some other stuff right now, but I have a feeling that that would defeat the entire purpose of this blog, lol.

Until the next blog...

Me!